realized that I couldn't go to work today. I had a migraine yesterday, that completely rocked my world. I was unable to think, forgot 4 hours out of the day (I was at work mind you) and ended up taking a Loritab. It is interesting that Loritabs would make it into this blog, conisdering that I don't take pills. I was prescribed some crazy drug, that makes licking refrigerator doors taste amazing, so Loritabs seemed like the lesser of two evils.
It messed up my whole day today. I couldn't go to my day job at a clinic, and couldn't go to my liquor tasting later on.
I taste liquor. I pour samples. I give people free shots inside liquor stores, and they seem to really like it. I used to want to be a Dr. but I don't anymore, now I just want to make my own alcohol. I feel as though people would rather self-medicate. That and theres not too many jobs that let you drink while you work. I really enjoy liquor. Not in a "I need to go to meetings and drink shitty coffee with literature" kind of way, but in a romantic relationship type of way. An appriciation for the ingredients coming together in a substance that's only purpose is to make you feel really good. To heal wounds, to meet new people, to forget, I give that to people. And it excites me.
I have a boyfriend. We are pretty much attached at the hip. A dynamic duo if you will. But (and there is always a BUT) recently I have felt disconnected from him as well as everything else, which may infact be the reason I started to write. It feels good to get all of these thoughts out of my head, and who knows, maybe the migraines may stop.
So he can't let things go, and he omits information. Not the worst of evils, but definately a trust issue, but we are working it out.
People are scared I think. Scared of what others think, and so we hide our thoughts from people we love and supposedly love us in efforts to preserve relationships... alcohol helps truth come out too... wink wink..
So we are stuck in the middle of a giant lying whirlwind of misconception and insecurity, and we wonder why trust is an issue... Oh well.
-The Green Fairy.
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